october 28 etc (let's go blue jays!)
Late post with very little meat on the bone today for reasons including but not limited to that a piece of my heart broke forever last night when we lost in 18 innings.
As for the rest I'll just say that it's not good. Manageable, yes. Will be okay, yes. But right now, in this moment? Not good.
I really want to write a post about how last night's game was an all-time classic and of the best games I've ever seen and also a messy, ugly, sloppy game but I don't have the wind right now (and also I need to rewatch it (condensed, natch) so that I can think about it without having a 6-hour coronary episode.
I really want to write a post about all the things you think about when you lay awake in the middle of the night thinking about all the big things (yeah those things) and feel like the smallest of all things, about how life... reveals itself to you a bit at a time for a long time and then every now and again it happens all at once and if you are ready for it or at least not unready for it, you get to see like, big truths and they're all lit up and clear and unmistakeable but anything I write other than that won't feel true because I haven't finished feeling the feelings. But I'm close.
I'm not only going to drop any one links today. Other than that I'm just too exhausted:
That said, I'll be in airplanes and in airports all day tomorrow so you better believe I'm gonna write a long one and include a metric fuckton of links at the end.
🌲 gonna let's
🌼 go
🌱 touch blue
🌳 grass jays
🌷 now clap clap clapclapclap
Be good to yourself.
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