january 8 smh
NB: I accidentally deleted this post at 1:52pm ET on January 9. I was able to reconstitute and repost it now (2:09pm ET on January 9) because the homie FS had it open in a tab. TL:DR this is repost, but nothing has been changed from the original post. Rest assured I am still angry at myself for being clumsy and stupid earlier. —dj
It was unseasonably warm in Toronto today and it was a workday and it was a Thursday and I had a million things to do and errands to run and yet I spent most of today trying not to read or think or talk about the fact that ICE agents in Minnesota straight-up murdered a lady in broad daylight yesterday or that moments later, prominent people in the current administration lied vigorously about the incident (there's video) and then literally blamed her for getting murdered.
Sidebar: Ronny was good on the Daily Show tonight.
You might think I'm winding up for a rant here but I'm not. There's nothing more to say. There's nothing that hasn't been said before. There's nothing just over the horizon. It's just like this now. It's just always like this now.
Despite my long-held position that the United States is (and has long been) a dystopian failed state run by the literal worst people alive, I know, like, and love a lot of Americans. I talk to Americans every day and largely enjoy the experience (shout out to PM whom I sent over 8,000 Discord messages to in 2025). I think that Americans (mostly my friends and colleagues but also, like, Sarah Squirm and Keyonte George) deserve a country that makes sense and functions properly instead of the one that's been spoiling for Civil War 2: Electric Boogaloo for around 150 years.
I don't have a rant because there's no point. I know what I think and know and feel and so do you. As such I do not think I have the capacity to be up in arms about anything that happens in contemporary America anymore. Like, real talk? I have no scintilla of belief or hope left. There is no low I cannot conceive of or imagine, and when you are relatively sure that the president could kill a puppy with a ball peen hammer on national television and face no consequences for it, you have to ask yourself what the point of being shocked even is and when the cruelty is the point, why bother pointing out the cruelty.
They know.
They're doing it on purpose.
We know they're doing it on purpose.
I wish I felt better about things. I wish I weren't low-key celebrating going numb about stuff. But at some point you have to just see things as they are. America isn't coming back from this. Sure, maybe someone sane ends up in the White House in 2028, but there's just no way to come back from what we've seen, what we've been seeing. It's almost impressive how quickly and efficiently this ridiculous clusterfuck of totally uncool jokers (shout out Barbara Kruger) turned the United States into the worst version of itself. Say what you want about the bad guys, but they understand something essential about the country and the people in it. They know the tunes to play to get folks to line up to get fed to the woodchipper.
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As I've mentioned a few times, I've gotten back into board and card games in a real way lately. Part of that is that I now (read: once again) sign up for email updates for games that are launching via Kickstarter (or wherever). All of this is an overlong prologue to get to this update about a game called Lodge that I am intrigued by.
🌲 gonna
🌼 go
🌱 touch back to watching
🌳 grass AJ Dybantsa highlights
🌷 now
Be good to yourself.
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